I read a ton of books for my kids, but I am pretty selective about what I read for myself. I have wasted plenty of time reading books that the world deems worthy of obsessing over, and I gave those up long ago...out of frustration and lack of time.
Since that time, I've noticed an interesting thing occurring: The truly remarkable, life-changing, and best books for me...have found a way to find Me...not the other way around.
Last year, it was "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom. This year, it is "The Gift of Giving Life," by Heather Farrell, et al.
It arrived in the mail yesterday, and my first thought was, hmmm, looks thick...but it was quiet in the house so I flipped open to an essay about midway through the book.
I was blown away by what I read. Here is an excerpt:
"...The Buddhists say that pain is inevitable, but suffering is a painful feeling about pain. Pain is simply a sensation, but suffering comes from thinking that what is shouldn't be. I saw that no matter what happened to me in this life, I could trust that God had me in mind and that life happens for me, not to me. It's all for my good."
"I envisioned myself looking at the possibilities for my earth life, accepting all the risks, and saying, "I am willing, send me. I am willing to be the one who is betrayed. I am willing to be physically uncomfortable. I am willing to lose a child. I am willing to be...lost, confused, hurt, offended, upset, in pain, maimed. I am willing, send me. I want to feel what it is to be alive, to love, to forgive. I am willing to face pain so that I might know true joy."
"...I had always said, '"I want to be like Jesus,'"...Was I truly willing?...He was willing."
Can I also say, "Here am I, send me?
That is just one incredible and courageous observation taken from one of the dozens of essays that you will find in this beautiful book. (This one was called "Goddess in Embryo" by Rebecca Overson, p. 252.)
I'll admit that when I heard about this book on my friend Heather's blog, I wondered if it was going to be very granola...and TMI. I wondered if it was going to push certain ways to be a Mother. I wasn't sure I'd fit into their recommended "way".
But from the taste that I received yesterday, I realized that this is going to be the adventure of a lifetime (times 22 women's lifetimes)...as that is what giving the gift of life to another person is: the adventure of a lifetime.
Although I've only just begun the journey through this book, I am able to say with confidence that this book is one of those life-changing books that "found me."
This is my book of the year! It is more than a book on Motherhood or giving birth. It is a book about placing your hand squarely in the Lord's and saying, "Here am I, send me!"
You can read more about this book at http://thegiftofgivinglife.com/