Sunday, January 8, 2017

Work and work and wait and see...


Well, we made it to Pittsburgh.  We moved two days before Christmas.  I picked the kids up right after their last day of school.  They bawled.  It was the saddest sound I've ever heard.  It was the sound of their first broken heart.  

Other details about our move.  My baby threw up in the packed car, but, thankfully, didn't make too much of a mess.  We headed back to say good-bye to our house and clean up the baby.  While there, my 4-year-old started throwing up all over the kitchen.  She threw up all the way to Pittsburgh. I stopped 5 times in four hours to empty the barf bowl and clean it out with snow from the side of the road.  But even that wasn't that bad.

There have been many tender mercies, but still it's been really hard. We're living in an apartment until our house is built.  But we've all been sick over Christmas and New Year's, especially my baby who threw up for a week straight, had a cold, and now is battling a fever. And the kids, who are all sharing a room, never want to go to bed nicely.  Not at all.

I know that the Lord is watching out for us though, as he sent many friends to help me move (My husband was already in Pittsburgh. He came a month earlier.).  He has sent other people to befriend us.  In fact, the first night here, I met a woman in Target at like 10:30pm.  I asked her to be my friend because, well, we kept getting in each other's way, and I was feeling like I just needed a friend, and she agreed. (It turned out her son is my son's age and in his "teaching team" at school.)

One night soon after, I found myself making a late-night Walmart run.  I suddenly realized I didn't know a soul (and at Walmart back home, I usually know many of the people working and shopping!)  I felt really lonely, so I said something about it on facebook.  Wouldn't you know, the friend I met in Target invited me out for pie at like midnight.  She dropped everything for me, a stranger, and came out in the cold at midnight to cheer me up.  Super cool, good woman.

I had to stay home from church today to tend my sick baby.  As he slept, something caught my eye.  There were three deer running past our apartment window...something that happened frequently at my old house.  It might not mean much to someone else, but to me it meant something.  

I know the Lord is watching over me.  I know He sees me struggle and feel sad and miss old friends and old ways and the comfort of a home and my things around me.  But I know He knows what's best for me and for my family, and so I keep going.  One day at a time until I learn the lessons He wants me to learn and arrive at the places He wants to lead me through.

It's a little scary.  It's a lot lonely.  It's very draining.  But I trust in Him.

And for now, we work and work and wait and see...what the Lord has waiting for me.

8 comments:

  1. I know your pain! That's exactly how I felt last year when I moved! I know the Lord will watch out for you!!

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    1. Thank Ashley! Since I haven't moved in such a long time, it's a trial I haven't given much thought...I'll definitely sympathize more with others on this in the future!!

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  2. I wish we lived close--I would love to get to know you! I want you to know how much I appreciate you sharing your ideas and inspiring me. I read every post because I always learn something new that I can help my family with. Thank you for being a light to the world. And your new area is so lucky to have you! We have moved a lot and it has been difficult every time. After the first year I feel like I have my feet under me again the time it takes time to re-establish can be lonely. But you're right--the Lord knows you and that's what makes it all okay! I'm sure He has great things in store. So sorry your family has been sick :( It's a new year...just bound to get better!!

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    1. Every year I'm surprised by how things turn out. I'm sure there are good surprises ahead..just have to patiently work toward them! Thanks for your kind and supportive words! I really appreciate them!

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  3. I love your deer story! To me those are "Customized Tender Mercies" from our Father who knows us perfectly and gives us the perfect gifts so we know He is there!! Good Luck in your new adventure. I saw this sweet quote on a friend's facebook page, "'Hold on tightly, but let go lightly.' It's time to grow elsewhere. Thank you (your previous home) for being so kind to us. Here's to a new start.🌱" I'd be your friend too and take you out for pie or ice cream at midnight!! I think you are AMAZING and help me try harder everyday to be a better mom and daughter of God! Thank you Jocelyne

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    1. I like that quote. I'm definitely one who let's go lightly! If at all!! ;) thanks for encouraging me during this tender time. Xoxo

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  4. I'm so glad you're posting at least a little back on the good ol' blog. (I don't do FB or any other social media.) Your post reminds me of my first blog post of the year ( http://pegsacademy.blogspot.com/2017/01/already-in-love-with-2017.html ). I almost hesitated to post it, not because I didn't believe it but because I was afraid I was "asking for it," a little like Job. Well, the gates of disaster DID open, right after I posted, but it's all been okay. Like you, I can see little miracles and blessings in the midst of the mess. It makes such a difference when you trust and thank and look for Father's hand. I also wanted to share something I created for myself for this year: you could print it and put it on your fridge or mirror for those extra lonely, hard days. http://pegsacademy.blogspot.com/2017/01/2017-word-clouds-and-positive-thinking.html

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  5. good to have you back in blogland-you have many friends here...hang in there, this too shall pass. Blessings await.

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